Wild Things

I took the little ones to see Where the Wild Things Are today. I was pretty excited about the movie as it was one of my favorite childhood books, in fact it was the first book that I actually remember reading. I was at the library and my sister's friend was helping to teach me to read and it was the first one that I read...I loved the book and surprisingly it is one that I don't have in our collection, so it is on the christmas book list.
The movie was okay...I felt that the movie captured the characters, but to me it didn't capture the essence of the book. And maybe it's just that I don't remember the book that well, but I didn't remember it being sad and I felt like the movie was a bit sad. It was a good movie, but I think my expectations were pretty high and it wasn't what I expected. The little ones thought it was okay, but they asked to leave in the middle of it, we didn't.
I still think it is a great story about imagination and look forward to reading it with my little ones.

Be the Rainbow in Someone's Cloud

Tonight I went and saw Maya Angelou speak at Drake University, it was a full house and she was this tiny figure on a stage, but her words and voice echoed and struck me on many levels. I was moved and had to contain the tears that wanted to pour out as she spoke to the crowd.

Lately I have been struggling with some issues and have been asking the higher spirits for a guidance and direction, which indeed I received tonight. On Tuesday night I came to my blog to vent and complain about how horrible a day it was, but midway through I deleted what I wrote and decided I wasn't going to post it.

Instead I turned to one of my books that I keep by my bed, which was Letter to my Daughter by Maya Angelou and I thought it was appropriate since I knew I was going to see her. So I flipped through it and as I read, one of the passages spoke to me. The next day I decided to post it on my Facebook page, which was "You may not control all the events that happen to you, but you can decide not to be reduced by them. Try to be the rainbow in someone's cloud." And tonight as soon as I heard her say those words, I knew I was meant to be there - my sweet pea had parent-teacher conferences tonight as well, but I decided to just let the hubs go so I could listen to Maya and I needed to hear her words, words that can heal a heart. She was inspiring and everything and more than I ever imagined and as I listened and just soaked in the moment I realized how hard I am on myself. I believe that when you pray for something, you are given the opportunity and this was my opportunity for what I was asking guidance on.

She spoke about timidity and how we need to be courageous, we need to be kind and to be the rainbow in someone's cloud. And I am guilty - I'm timid and I've always been that way, I say what is appropriate or what someone wants to hear and I stay within my comfort zone. I don't like to complain to anyone, but sometimes I do to those I really do trust and even then I still with hold. And for the most part when I'm down, it really does just take my kids and hubby to get me laughing and then I'm good.
Anyway, listening to her reminded me that I deserve to reach for my goals and dreams, I owe it to myself. Writing all of this is somewhat difficult for me as I feel like I'm exposing myself, for my children and family I will fight, but when it comes to myself I don't, but sometimes I think as a woman and mother we are all guilty of putting ourselves last. So, I'm going to start pushing myself out of the comfort zone and I'm going to be courageous and finish on those projects that I have half-started.
I love to write and I have some really great starts to books that I have started, but never finished and I'm going to finish them. I'm going to start on my children's book and if they one day get published - great, if one person reads it and can take something away from what I've written would be better and if it never happens at least I will have something for my children. A glimmer into their mother, perhaps they will learn something they didn't know, but I'm going to reach for my dreams and hope that I too can be the rainbow in someone's cloud - thank you Maya for being mine.

Reflection

Last weekend my hubby arranged a camping trip just for the two of us, it was a wonderful surprise especially since I didn't have to plan an ounce of it. He even got the kiddies arrangements taken care of, so even though I was hoping for rain I was grateful that he had gone to all the trouble. I was wishing for rain because I'm not a "camper," I enjoy the outdoors and love being surrounded by nature, but I definitely like the comfort's of home, especially at night. So I was a bit nervous about the whole thing and did I happen to mention that we would be canoeing to our spot (and if you don't know I don't care to much for water, but slowly I'm working on it) and we took our dogs.

Getting into the canoe, I already started to panic, but I had to remind myself that this was the river and it was pretty low and I had kayaked in the ocean, so I would be fine with my styling flashy (wink wink) life jacket in our little red canoe. We didn't go far and I probably could have gone further, but the hubs said he didn't want to push it, so we found a nice sandbar and made camp. We gathered firewood, set up the tent and I made the fire...indeed it was me...I started the fire with no matches. The hubs cooked an outstanding dinner, I was super impressed.

The silence was calming as was watching the birds, which we saw three golden eagles and several blue herons. The dogs were entertaining and at night the stars and moon where radiant with it's light reflecting in the river. Against all odds - I thoroughly enjoyed myself. I enjoyed just talking to my husband in that not "mom mentality" that sometimes I find myself trapped in - it was the BEST date night that I have had in a long time and I simply want to thank my hubby for it, especially considering the little ones got sick with the flu (no it is not the H1N1) and have been sick this whole week.

Thanks my love....I will warn him though that he better get me a nicer life jacket if we are going to do this more often, I don't think I could handle that ugly poor excuse of a floatation device next time.

"Forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the wind longs to play with your hair." - Kahlil Gibran