Monday, February 22, 2010

WOW...What a ROCK STAR

My friend called me to tell me how she saw a mutual friend's name in the Business Record and I always knew that she rocked at her job and she is just a great all-around person, so I just wanted to post a quick CONGRATULATIONS to my friend Jami!!!!
I'm glad to see that she is getting recognized for her efforts, she is definitely someone who puts 150% to anything she does!
Great job!!! I'm so proud of you!!!! The link to the article is below.....
http://businessrecord.com/main.asp?SectionID=4&SubSectionID=7&ArticleID=9577&TM=51466.36

The Paradoxical Commandments

I logged on to blog and was reading some of the other blogs that I follow and one of the posts by another blogger caught my attention and as I was reading it, I knew I had to share it on mine. To see her posts, you can visit http://domesticwitch.blogspot.com/2010/02/paradoxical-commandments.html

The Paradoxical Commandments is a poem and book by Kent M. Keith - I'm going to look for his book, his message is so true and simple.


The Paradoxical Commandments

People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered; Love them anyway

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies; Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and sincere, people may deceive you; Be honest and sincere anyway.

What you spend years building, others could destroy overnight; Built it anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous; Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, will often be forgotten; Do good anyway.

Give the best you have, and it may never be enough; Give your best anyway.

In the final analysis, it is between you and God; It was never between you and them anyway.


I enjoyed this poem probably because it is so very true. And a lot of times you don't find kindness in strangers, your lucky if you get a smile and why? Why is it so hard to smile or offer a kind word or gesture to someone. Have we become that suspicious of everyone and their motives; I know that I can't look in the mirror and say I have not been guilty of one or more of these. How about you?

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Nope, the door didn't open

So, following up from my post on Monday.....the door didn't open, so for now we will be remaining here, which I'm okay with. I heard back and in the end the job will not be mine. It's tough, but I remain positive that something will come along. I know my mom is happy that we won't be leaving.
There are a lot of people that are discouraged and have quit looking all together and I'm fortunate in that I'm not in a big hurry. My children are still at home with me, my oldest will start school full-time next year, so it is not like I need a job today. So, I will keep chugging along getting my name out there.
I also heard back from the docs, I need to go in for more testing, yippee just what I wanted to hear! He said they may still have to do the laparoscopy, which I don't want either. I have not called to schedule my test as I really don't want it, I haven't had any more pain since Sunday, so I'm hoping that I'm on the mend, however, my appetite is still pretty low and when I do eat, I feel sick. My jeans are loose, which is good, but this is probably not the way I should lose weight.
On a different note, if you have kiddies and looking for a fun activity, the kids and I played "What is this taste?" I blindfolded both of them and they could touch, smell, and taste four different snacks, which I basically had one to two pieces of each. They then had to guess what it was. It was hilarious seeing them touch the snacks, which I had mandarin oranges, graham cracker, pudding, and chicken. I put a spoonful of pudding in my little man's mouth and I thought he was going to spit it all out just because of the texture and then once he tasted it, he was like that was so yummy! And they got all of them correct once they tasted it, it is definitely something we will play again. It was a fun way to get them to eat all of their snacks....hmmm perhaps I should try it with dinner?
We also put an egg in a glass of vinegar and observed what happens over 24 hour period. They drew pictures of what initially happens (which bubbles begin to surround the egg). And I kept it on the dinning room table so they could check on the egg every now and then...the next day, we took the egg out and dried it off. I was quite surprised by what happened...the shell came off when we wiped it clean, it was like it dissolved off the shell, leaving it naked and the egg felt all bouncy and squishy almost like rubber. The kids thought that was pretty neat and then it rolled off my little man's hands and SPLAT. I was disappointed that we didn't get to show the hubs, but we can do it again. I took a picture of the egg in the vinegar, but didn't get a chance to take a picture of the naked egg...will do for next time though.
Well I suppose I've been rambling on for some time now, so I will end it for today...Blessed Be!

I have a simple philosophy: Fill what's empty. Empty what's full. Scratch where it itches. ~Alice Roosevelt Longworth

Monday, February 8, 2010

Waiting...why is it so hard

I'm waiting to hear back if I get asked back for a final interview with the company I applied for in the Southwest region, waiting seems so hard. I'm trying not to think about it, which helps. I've always said that if things are meant to be then the doors open for you, if doors keep shutting in your face then you know you need to focus on a different direction, so now we just need to wait to see if this door opens.
I'm also still waiting to hear back from the other doctor, I went on Tuesday last week, where he said it could be a few other things besides the ruptured cyst, so they took more tests. My blood work came back normal, but I haven't heard about the other. I called last Friday and the doctor was out and they couldn't even find that I took this test...seriously people? So, she said someone would call today....still waiting!!! I decided if I don't hear anything by 2:30, I'll call again.

On a different note, I was reflecting on my new year's resolutions and so far I think I'm off to a good start....
  • I've had two phone interviews and like I posted above, waiting to hear back
  • I had blogged earlier that I submitted a story to the Expressing Motherhood play that would be coming to Des Moines, well I heard back from them. They enjoyed what I submitted, but they did not get enough submissions from mothers here in Des Moines, so they will not be coming after all. I think it is a shame, I think a lot of women would have enjoyed that show and seriously anyone who is a mother has a great story to tell, whether it is funny, inspirational, sad, etc... So, I'm disappointed that they won't be coming to Des Moines, it would have been a great show to see.
  • I've started rereading and editing some of what I've written for one of the books I started, but I'm kind of stuck as to whether or not I create "stories" based on research and other information I find or do I seek out volunteers who would be willing to share their experiences if I changed the names/places, etc..?
And as I'm trying to be true to myself by stepping out of the box, I've come to realize that really the only thing holding one back is our own perceptions and our own expectations of ourselves.We can't soley depend on another to make our dreams come true, we have to act on our own behalf as well. Till then....Blessed Be....

"Whatever the source, it is clear that worry is not useful. It is a cancer of the emotions - concern gone compulsive. It eats away at your body and mind." - 365 Days of Tao

Friday, January 29, 2010

So that's what that was....

I went to the ER about three weeks ago because I was having horrible abdominal (labor-like) pain, it started about 8:00 pm and we went in around 11:00 pm. They ran tests, took blood, etc, etc...and discharged me around 5:00 am with CRAMPING. Okay...prior to children I had lots of tummy issues, so I chalked it up to those coming back around.
Well, my tummy still has been cramping, feeling sick and icky, and still have moderate pain...so about a week ago I went to see my regular physician, she schedules a pelvic ultrasound, which I did this week.
I got the results today...I have a ruptured cyst and there is still fluid/blood in my abdominal area, which needs to be taken care of as soon as possible. So, the nurses asks me..."are you running a fever, how is your pain?" I tell her I don't think I'm running a fever and actually this week was the first week were my pain wasn't that bad. So, she proceeds to tell me that I run the risk of infection with the fluid/blood still there and so they made an appointment with another physician and from there they will tell me what the next steps are because they don't know the severity of the rupture. I need to go in if I develop a fever, become dizzy, etc...and as she is telling me this, I'm thinking they told me it was CRAMPING, all this time I felt like an idiot because I couldn't handle cramps, yet the yahoo of a doctor couldn't tell I had a ruptured cyst even after a CAT scan...SERIOUSLY!!!!
So I try to digest all this because I knew it was something more than cramps, but I didn't know for sure and I got a bit upset about the whole thing...I found all this out about an hour and half before my second interview for a position I applied for, so I had to compose myself and think positive...which I think the interview went well, but I try to not to read into things or get ahead of myself, I'm just glad I was able to focus for the interview.
I'm also glad that I ended up going to my regular physician for a follow-up otherwise, it could have gotten a lot worse had I left it untreated. So, lesson learned...follow your instincts...it's there for a reason. And as I know from my mother's history...doctor's are not always right.

"Dost thou love life? Then do not squander time, for that the stuff life is made of." - Ben Franklin

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Dance, Dance, Dance

My sweet pea was singing lyrics from "All you need is love" and so we ended up taking out the IPOD and playing some music, which whenever we break out music tends to break out the dancing.
And the kids don't have to ask me twice to dance with them, so we spun, we twirled, and we laughed. I'm sure the hubs thinks I'm absolutely crazy when we do this, but I love music and music that makes you dance...what more could you ask for. So we had quite the fun listening and dancing. In fact, my little girl has this one move that reminds me of Elaine from Senfield, the episode when she dances...it makes me laugh everytime she pulls it out. It is like a combination of Irish Step and her own touch....I absolutely love it. I took a clip of her and we were watching it together, to which she put her hands on her face and said, "that is so freaking embarassing." I told her that I loved it and I loved her dance moves.

Anyway, the hubs and sweet pea had to leave for recital practice and it was just me and the little man. He wanted to listen to "Three Little Birds," which he calls "doe, doe" and one of my favorite songs came on. It is by The Pogues and is called "Love you 'till the end" and he didn't want to listen to it at all, but finally agreed and then he said, can we dance to it? So, he stepped on my toes and we danced around the room and I thought if I could choose one moment for him to hold on to, I would hope it would be that moment. And at the end of the song, I said, "thank you my little man for the dance, it was lovely" and he said, "actually...it was lovely, thanks mama."

And just as a side note, I was looking at old posts and it has been two years today that I started my blog (WOW)...it really doesn't seem like I've kept this blog that long...so if you happen to read my blog, THANKS! I really write this for myself as a way to just express my thoughts and my rants, so the fact that people read it, makes me smile...thanks again!

"Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life" - Berthold Auerbach

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

What good shall I do this day?

I came across Benjamin Franklin's daily schedule from another website regarding 25 Amazing websites for inspiration and positivity (http://gimundo.com/news/article/25-amazing-websites-and-online-resources-for-inspiration-positivity-and-mor/) and I thought that should be a question we ask ourselves everyday.
And today, I awoke a little grouchy...it was another day with "icky" feelings, but I tried to make the most of it because I had an interview today, so I didn't want any negative thoughts to make my day worse and then those come across in my interview.
My mom and I were talking about my stomach issues and she thinks it is my nerves and my pent up feelings creating all this tension in my tummy, I told her I didn't feel "stressed" out, but I could see that it is possible, but I've been trying to remain positive and as I think of it, yeah stress could be the cause of all my tummy troubles.
Stress 1.the bankruptcy, which I posted about earlier, but took down because I got some slack for blogging about it, even though it was published in the paper the following week (and yes people do read that section). 2. The hubs and I had the blow out with his sister, which I did call her and apologize for my actions, but I'm still upset about it and things that happened afterwards because regardless of what you do or say, it is all about perspective. 3. Our will 4. Job hunting and realizing that filing bankruptcy may hurt some potential leads 5. Interview jitters
So yes, I can see that keeping all this tucked inside could cause some stress and I was depressed a few months ago, but I pulled out of it and I have started feeling better, but apparently my body is slow in catching up.
So, after I got home from my interview this evening, I checked out the above website and saw the Franklin schedule and I tried to think of what good I've done today, but besides playing mommy I couldn't think of anything out of the ordinary. I did have a really great conversation with my little brother, which we haven't talked like we did in a very long time...so maybe that was it, but who knows.
Tomorrow is a new day and I will start my day with that question "What good shall I do this day?" And we shall see what happens....till then...Blessed Be!!!


“The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes." - Charles Swindoll